The Wait

I've had a hard time this past week. I feel the stress like I felt during the wait for our referral with Clio. There have also been some stressful issues at work and I'm not sleeping well...I'm sure it's all inter-related. I really wanted to hear something this week...either photos from someone visiting China or new about our travel from the agency. Unfortunately, none of the above.

Each day we don't get news from the agency means longer until we travel. While I knew August was a long shot, it is now shot. No chance we will travel then. I had my hopes pinned on mid to late Sept. and it's still possible, but getting scarily close if we don't hear something soon.

Oct. is a tough month for travel to China. The first week is a National Holiday and all government offices are closed. (Who am I to complain about government holidays...) The 3rd and 4th weeks are a big trade fair which makes travel difficult and extra expensive.

The good news is that I emailed my agency and learned that while it may cost us an arm and a leg, because we are in the waiting child program and won't be with a big group, we can possibly travel in Oct.

I SO want to be with our Tian by her first birthday. I know she won't know the difference, but we sure will.

I have been emailing a lot with one of my online friends Lisa who has very similar dates to ours. She and I have decided to try to frame our thoughts more positively. So we are saying that we don't expect to hear anything until late August and will travel "sometime before the end of the year." While we both desperately hope both things happen sooner, framing them in a more realistic to worst case scenario may help us to hope for the best but be prepared for a longer wait. I hope it helps.